September 2010
1 post
#1 Rule:
NEVER GIVE A SUCKER AN EVEN BREAK
April 2010
2 posts
Apology
I’m sorry for my absence. However, I have dirt. How old is too old? I’ve been with Nathan for about three months, it’s comfy and I am taken care of as much as I’ll allow. I slept with Jamie, that was interesting…7 minutes! Are you joking? As well as I swap reading notes about Lolita with a 29 year old…He has the same jaw as my ex boyfriend.
“I haven't been home in a while”
“Why where have you been?”
“At a friend's”
“Who? Now I'm jealous”
“Ha, you can't be jealous”
“I know, but I am, so who?”
“Nathan's”
“Oh, same old.”
March 2010
1 post
Missed connection
I had a full body swoon a week and a half ago, it makes me nauseous to think about how it all played out, because any changes in conversation could have led to names exchanged, numbers exchanged, but no we hit it off and what I was left with was nothing. Empty encounters! How is it possible that someone that gives you the ultimate first meeting, stays a stranger? It’s unfair and it’s...
February 2010
3 posts
The Recoil
1) Please stop drinking so much that when we go home together I have to deal with your alcohol-induced impotence issues.
2) a. My friends really don’t care if you make them laugh or not, please stop trying to, it’s making me cringe.
b. What is that I hear? Trying to impress them? Stop it! Don’t start talking about other girls you’ve been with to try and impress my guy...
romance-and-cigarettes-deactiva asked: Dearest PD.
Where have you gone? Please come back and write some more, you're my favorite, don't you know? And if I'm being honest I miss you and your adventures.
Love,
ACR
P.S. Hope you're doing well ( I know it's generic, but you're a waif so it's a genuine concern).
Where have you gone? Please come back and write some more, you're my favorite, don't you know? And if I'm being honest I miss you and your adventures.
Love,
ACR
P.S. Hope you're doing well ( I know it's generic, but you're a waif so it's a genuine concern).
I believe one can grow to love anyone and anything. It may not be the kind of love that one always wants but it’s the most common love. A love made from timing and circumstance. Affection given purely because one needed to give it. There is a time in a relationship where there is delusions of love, a question arises, “perhaps this is what it is, to love.”
Don’t worry...
January 2010
9 posts
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The Convenient Boyfriend
I feel I have to like him in order for him not to feel like I’m using him for something. Maybe I am, maybe I’m using him for everything.
The Waif (1)
My living situation has gone from steady to not. I’m used to being a waif, though now I feel like I’m just too old for it, too tired, too comfortable with being clean and unwrinkled. My absence from posting is obviously due to not being near my laptop. Anyway for the past six days I have stayed with different boys. Collecting a shirt here, a cardigan there, slight differences in what...
Watchthe waif and the convenient boyfriend, an explanation for a post following.
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Truth
I’m going to say it: If you’re at a party and you want that girl to go home with you and you’ve made it clear to her that this is your intention and she’s still frolicking around the party saying her hello’s and goodbye’s, it doesn’t make a difference to her if you fuck tonight or not. She may have seemed like she wanted to while she was kissing you in a...
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New Years Eve (2)
So what? the first post was a bit drab, forgive me, I was leading up to goodness.
I saw some skaters, who were mildly interesting and started moshing with Oliver once “Basketcase” came on. I can only roll my eyes so much. I eyed the boy who had smashed a bottle right next to me. I could really care less about what skaters think of me, so I went up to him and said something vaguely...
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New Years Eve (1)
Bridget and Anna came over to the flat with wine and champagne in hand, everyone was drinking and talking about work and music and parties. Some of us went on the roof to smoke, pop champagne and heckle those below. At some point everyone would paw at themselves looking for their phone, find out what everyone else was doing, where to go, what would be good. We made runs to the corner store to...
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The Recoil
Now, I can only imagine men have some of their own complaints, but here are some of mine that I think top my list…At least that I can think of right now.
1. Kissing: Now in order to cover this very important topic of discussion in its entirety I will have to have some sub-categories.
-Facial hair, I’m down for the scruffy look and all, but lets face it, the condensation that’s...
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“I’m on my way out of the bar, someone taps my shoulder, behind me a guy...”
– London Encounters #3
December 2009
8 posts
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London Encounters #2
A friend of a friend was djing at this club, that previous to this visit I had found to be the shittiest party ever. But, me and my friends had been drinking champagne and wine since the afternoon, and we felt like going out once 11 came around. We were promised bottle service, so we knew even if the crowd was horrible we could still have fun.
The music was all our favourite songs we had been...
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And it starts with a flash (3)
I went to London a few months later after the initial trip that year, Ryan called me and we walked around Soho, not speaking much, both wondering whether this trip would follow suit with the last.
I hadn’t had sex since him and by this time it was Spring. We walked to this little bandstand and started to kiss, personally, it was the only thing that I could do without the situation being...
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London Encounters #1
Nathan works at a bar I’ve started to frequent, when I met him he had just gotten off work, he went outside when me and a friend left to smoke a cigarette. He laughed at what we were saying privately, and I decided he was cute enough to join in our conversation. When the bar closed we went to his friend’s house that was around the corner. We drank more, and our friends did blow (my...
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And it starts with a flash (2)
I was half awake when I realized Matthieu running his hands over my arms and slowly tracing my face with his fingers as if trying to memorize my nose or lips. Unbuttoning the buttons on my blouse, contemplating my fingernails that were chipped from the previous night.
I was too hungover to protest to the small caresses, and I didn’t really mind. I opened my eyes and ran my finger over the...
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And it starts with a flash (1)
The second day I got to London I bumped into literally the only boy in London I’ve slept with. LITERALLY. Outside a fucking tube station topping up his Oyster card. Not even the tube station where he lives, which is forgivable and realistic. But a completely random area. You could say I was in a total shock. Two years had passed, I thought I could run away from my past! From boys I had...
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An introduction
I’m 18 (honestly I would never admit this anywhere, so don’t give me some ageist bullshit) and live in London. I never used to live in London, actually, I’m quite American. I am American. I just moved to London this winter. I had to leave everything by moving here. I had to make the decision that yes, this is what I want, this is where I have to be and leave all the people that...